Essays

Essays

Here are some of my best essays on Mormonism available for free online
Huffington Post

Huffington Post

I wrote for Huffington Post from July 2015-January 2018, beginning just after The Bishop’s Wife came out and as I was trying hard to stay connected to Mormonism while still honoring my own spiritual journey and my sense of self. This was sometimes excruciating and sometimes rewarding. I have much respect for those who have been in the “in between space” of Mormonism for much longer than I was able to stay. Ultimately, it was too painful to force myself to continue inside a space where as a woman, I felt powerless and unwanted.

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Falling Into An Endless Pit

My Zion Includes Ex-Mormons and Atheists

Why Mormons Leave

In the Middle Space

This is My Mormonism

The House of Joy

One Year of Protesting the Mormon POX

Why Miracle Stories Hurt

4 Reasons Grief Never Ends

Why Charity Isn’t About Giving

Sitting on the Porch Steps With Jesus

Embarrassed by Fellow Church Members

A Theology of Sameness

Not A Real Mormon

Being Blessed and Being Lucky

Blessed are the Smug

Rainbow Mormon Initiative

Missing the Sacred: Why This Atheist Came Back to Faith

A Journey From Mormon Orthodoxy

Mormon Mama Dragons

Trading This Life For the Next

Can Modern Christianity Give Up Satan? 

Do Mormons Believe in Hell? 

New Church Problems: Mormonism

13 Ways to Protest the New Policy

What It’s Like to Be A Mormon Woman

Run and Not Be Weary: Why Mormons Don’t Drink

Why Theists Need Atheists

Are Mormons Christians?

Confessions of a Former Doomsday Prepper

How to Manage Mormon Missionaries

Giving Up the Old God

I Feel God When I Run

Are We Mormons a Cult? 

Could God Be Gay?

Is White Supremacy Inherent to Mormon Doctrine?

Mormons Think Eve Was Right

Do Mormons Believe In Magic? 

Medium

Medium

After stepping away from formal affiliation with the Mormon church, Medium became a new space for me to talk about the journey. At first, I wasn’t sure if I was going to go back, but it has become more clear to me in the months since then that I had already ost everything that I was going to lose and that there was nothing to gain in going back. I still believe in a god of love, though not the god of Mormonism.

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Letter to an Ex-Mormon Man

They Left Mormonism But Not The Patriarchy

Shunning is for the Faithful

The Women’s CES Letter

Losing the Best and the Brightest

The Bitter Post-Mormon Life

Why They Didn’t Tell You About Their Faith Crisis

Religion News

Religion News

Jana Riess joined Mormonism in 1990, just before I finished my PhD at Princeton. I spoke at her baptism. We lost touch for many years, but reconnected in 2014, before The Bishop’s Wife came out. Jana asked me to write about Mormonism directly, in non-fiction essays. It was the first time I’d really tried to do this, and she later asked me to be a regular guest columnist for RNS.

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Five Doctrines of Ex-Mormonism

What Mormonism Taught Me

How to Be Mormon in Just 73 Easy Steps

The Best Mormon Family Home Evening Ever

10 Ways to Imagine a New Mormonism

An Open Letter to My Mormon Family and Friends

10 Ways Former Mormons Can Connect with Family and Friends

My Daughter Isn’t Mormon Anymore

For Families Divided by Mormonism

The Gift of Heavenly Mother

Families Are Forever as a Threat

My Mormon Family May Not Be Forever

Being Excluded From a Mormon Temple Wedding

11 Challenges for the Mormon Introvert

New Mormon Primary Manuals

Mormons and MLM’s

A Letter to My Daughter’s Seminary Teacher

Mormon LGBT policy isn’t Love

Mormon Fasting

Sacrament of Moving

When Mormon Teens Doubt

My Visiting Teacher Saved My Life

Drink a Coffee, Save Your Mormon Soul

Saying No to a Church Calling

Mormonism is Pro-Environment

Leaving Mormonism and Finding My Way Back